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[05|08|08 3:47pm] |
Kärjistetty? Kärjistetty! Minä!
Olen siinä iässä... Kärjistetty... Kaikki on vain iästä, vanhempi osaa aina paremmin, hän on parempi kaikessa, hänellä on ongelmia. kärjistetty... Hänellä on aina vastaus kaikkeen, kärjistetty...
Miten helvetissä voikin sanoa kärjistetyksi? Minä olen kärjistynyt vain siinä suhteessa, että olen kirinyt etumatkaa muihin tekopyhiin ja teennäsiin, ajattelen itse, olen johtoasemassa. Kärjistynyt.. Kärjistytnyttä ovat mielipiteet, kärjistynyttä.
Helvetin karikatyyli
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[03|17|08 12:43pm] |
Miltä tuntuu, kun se ihminen, jonka kanssa oikeasti haluaa olla, ja jolle voisi antaa -ja antaakin- kaikkensa,venyttämällä ja venyttämällä itsensä, ei itse pystykään arvostamaan sitä kaikkea, vaan tuntee olonsa uhatuksi kotonaan, ei osaa olla siellä kanssani?
Silloin kun ensimmäisen kerran tajusin, että olen kaukana hänen perheestään, hän ei lue minua heihin, pitää minua vieraana, sai minut ensin kiukun valtaan ja sen jälkeen väsyneeksi. Kun olen väsynyt, se heijastuu häneen -tällöin on minun vikani luonnollisesti, jos hän tuntee epämiellyttäviä tunteita... vaikka mitä muuta minäkään tuntisin kaiken jälkeen?
Tyhjyydessä sitä ei näe mitään, kuulee heikosti vain syyllisyyttä ja velvollisuutta: mitä minun pitäisi korjata ja miten asioiden pitäisi olla. Tahtoisi vain olla haluttu ja rakastettu.
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[02|02|08 3:54pm] |
My baby shot me down.
Just thinking:
What the hell am I doing here, lying in this bed
it's getting cold
don't stare at the wall please
I'm begging you
Turn your face here
tell me I'm wanted
i'm loved
but for a weird reason the room is getting colder I think wether I should be somewhere else, outside, there's much more warmer Please look at me tell me something don't just assume I'll always be here 'cos you know you have to feed the feeling I'm not just "it" I want to be "the" but please don't you let me understand you wrong now I thought some terrible things and it's killing me and you don't give a damn shit just say every thing has its time and your is going to come don't be afraid. But why do you leave me alone I don't reserve such a behave 'cos I've loved you more than anyone has or will just please try lets try together don't we. Don't ever again turn your back I feel enough cold already. I'm not a självklarhet don't know the word in english just please don't ignore me. Say something pretty
of course you try I see it. And I like you -love you. Just tell me that you feel the same. I haven't been so happy than I am now before you're my baby.
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[01|03|08 3:57pm] |
My good, it's been ages since I posted something here. And still I have nothing interesting to tell.
Anyway, I feel somehoe so angry and at the same time sad (I'm so mad and I'm so sad it makes me SMAD xD GG...). After I've read some stupid journal of some stupid girl who is fallen in in love with some stupid boy and that they are so happy together. Don't understand me wrong: I have a really good time with my own boyfriend. But still I cannot stand that kind on we-are-always-2gether-and-our-life-is-perfect-and-we--nor-both-of-us-had-ever-had-any-kind-of-problems. Well, here I have the fucking problems, come and get them!
Did you know, some day you really understand you are nothing, you haven't been raised to real life, you've always had those pillows around you. And then money! It's nice to have it, but yeah -it's also nice to EARN it!
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